Ever go to bed feeling like everything is great and under control just to wake up the next morning and it seems like things have all fallen apart? Your finances went from full to sparse? Your husband went from the most loving man in the world to "who is this man I married?". Your kids were straight A students and picture perfect then became "Mom, I'm dropping out and getting every possible piercing and tattoo known to man"? Your car breaks down, your furnace breaks down and your face breaks out- all at the same time? The craziness can just feel overwhelming!! You have been trusting God, praying, reading the Bible, paying your tithes, doing everything "right" and then one day it happens. Everything you've been trying to hold together by that one thread of string becomes unhinged.
I found myself there this weekend. I was on the side of the road and had a total and complete breakdown. I don't mean just my car...the car broke down...but inside the car, there I was having a complete meltdown...ugly-face crying and an all out pity party! I was trying to hold everything together in my life and then, just like that...what happened? The car was that proverbial last straw.
Look, I know the key scriptures:
Give all your worries and cares to God, for He cares about you. (1 Peter 5:7)
Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank Him for all he has done. (Philippians 4:6)
For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline. (2 Timothy 1:7)
Yup...I know them...and I still had a meltdown. Honestly, I felt like a fraud. Here I am sharing the gospel and the goodness of God with others, writing a Christian blog, interceding and writing prayers and devotionals for others...seriously?!?!
Thank God for friends who not only will come and get you, but will remind you of WHO you belong to. My good friend Evelyn drove over 25 miles to come pick me up and remind me: "Girl, you are the daughter of the Most High God". After I got myself together, got back home, ate and took a nap, I had to take some time to evaluate what had happened. Not to my car, but to me!
Why did I lose it? Because I was trying to fix all of these issues that were going on in my life on my own rather than just giving things up to God and allowing Him to be God.
As women, we try to fix everything and be everything. It can be overwhelming, especially when we try to do things without God. But that is not how God created us. Yes, He created us to be able to function- WITH HIM!
Psalm 46:10 says "Be still and know that I am God." The word "still" comes from a Hebrew word meaning "stop, cease, desist". We must stop trying to plan, fix, and do everything. We have to know that God is God. He is the one who created us, He sees everything we are going through, He sees what we need, He sees our motives, He knows what's happened, what is happening, and what will happen. We have to go to God and tell Him what He already knows "I can't do it all without you, Lord. I need Your help. I surrender all to You. Guide me. I'm going to wait until I hear from you before I make another move in this situation". And then let His peace, which passes all understanding guard your heart and mind as you live in Christ Jesus.
What are you trying to do without God? You may not even realize it. Ask God to bring it to your attention. Are you getting in the way by trying to do it all? Stop! Be still! Live by faith trusting God to be who He is: God- your everlasting Father who loves you and keeps His promises to provide for your every need.
God bless you. Stay encouraged.